Unfair?

“Oh her life is so perfect!”… i though… when i met one of my very good friends the other day. She has everything which anybody could ask for… Great career, married to her love of life (who incidentally is also doing fantastic in his own career) who loves her like crazy, great house which is very appealingly decorated, ... Yeah, everything!

And i almost have those things which i want..

How can some people have everything and we always just wait for some things in life? I am contented very fast.. but that doesn’t mean that there is no passion left in life.. there are so many things to be done, in so little time.. so many things to be achieved, through so few resources.. But i have that passion to do those things on my own...

There are many moments when we feel everything in life is satisfying and pleasing. But the next thing you know is some problem has come up, which you had never thought of, and which if unnoticed, can ruin everything!

Oh damn! This is unfair! Why can’t our life go as per the plans? Why can’t we just take into consideration all the extraneous yet important matters into consideration?

We don’t want everything.. But, why can’t we just live the way we want to?? How come some people live a peaceful life, when they don't deserve a bit of it?

Dil hai chotasa...

The other day while cleaning my closet i found an earring which I’d purchases from Nepal, way back in 1994. I also found a purse, picked up in some exhibition years ago, which was again a very teeny tiny one, with even more small pebbles and stones on it.

I have always been very much fascinated with small things. And these things were just an evidence of it that this has been my habit since childhood.

Even though i have those big and huge earrings, i still don’t take them out unless there’s some occasion. Otherwise i’m always wearing a small one. Same goes with my wrists watches, ring, bracelets, shoes (i cannot say i have tiny shoes and sandals, but their design is most of the times delicate), hairpins, and what not… (now, don’t’ get any weird idea, my clothes are an exception to this!!! They are well fit as they should be!!! )

I generally prefer small servings, small quantity of food at one time, big cup with very little coffee and so on and so forth!
And when i thought about it, i become conscious of the fact that for me, the same goes for many other intangible things as well.

I don’t need a very big reason to be happy, even a small compliment or a flattering remark or a comic strip makes me happy. It is not very hard to please me. And same goes with my anger!! I am a short tempered person; i get irritated pretty soon if things are not proper, but again, i get composed very fast!

Till this point it is okay. But, as i’m happy with small things, does that mean i become content rapidly? i have rejected so many good and big brands for my job, that at a particular point of time people started to think of me as a weirdo! People crave for big names, brands, fatty salaries, and here i was rejecting all of them. And finally settled with the profession i love, without thinking much about the “big” name and money.

But will it lead me anywhere? Am i loosing out somewhere by paying attention to small, but not insignificant, things?

Celebrations

I read a very cute post by one of my friends on his blog about 'his Valentine's day'..! And so many blogs on how their day has been. And suddenly, it made me realize it’s been so many years since i’ve been into a relationship, yet we’ve not celebrated a single V’day together. And surprisingly, i didn’t feel bad about it. Just surprised. Because when we started going out, we were just in the early stages of graduation (yeah, too early, i know.. :P). Still, even at that time we didn’t ‘celebrate’ it together. One of the reasons could be that our relationship was ‘still not ‘official’ at that time. (Oh what a lousy excuse, i thought!! That is the age when people celebrate it the most!!)

But then later on even after it being official, we never celebrated it together. Though me being the more sensitive amongst the two of us, i’ve always sent him some or the other gift. Still, we’ve not celebrated it together, i thought!!!!! :(

Now it started to bother me… are we not the romantic two? Are we becoming less and less affectionate? No, the answer was (fortunately) negative. And we are still in the early twenties.. (I could’ve said ‘mid’ twenties.. but...you know.. :P)
Then what the hell is the reason? And why the hell am i thinking of it NOW? What was i doing earlier? Oh no, what the hell was HE doing? Has he never thought of this??

I had to ask this to him… how could i bear the burden of these thoughts all by myself?!?!
And how could i break my habit of passing all my worries to him!!!

And i finally asked him.. “How come we’ve never celebrated V’day together??” “We have special plans for all other occasions, then why have we not made any special plans ever on this day?” “Don’t you want to celebrate it with me ever?”
Hmm, i’ve given him enough of input to think about, i thought. And now from now onwards we’ll have celebrations on these days!

But his reply astonished me. And without a second thought, i can say that i don’t think i’ll ever crib about not celebrating this day together..or doing something special or out of the way...

He said, “ I don’t want to celebrate my love with you only on this day. And when we do that, we always have it at the back of our mind that we’re through with the responsibility, which I am not. I don’t require a single day to celebrate this love with you. A single day is too less for that. I want the whole life. And I celebrate it every day…!”

Unconditional...

I've not yet seen my (only) niece Riya, in person. And it'll be an year before i could actually meet her and take her into my arms...

Yet, not a single day has passed since she's born that i haven't seen her snaps... or her video.. To add to it, her current snap is the wallpaper on both my comp and my mobile phone...

I really wonder, is it because she's my first niece, or she's my niece, or she's just like a cute l'il baby seen in every baby soap ad, or is it because of her that i became "aatya" (paternal aunt) for the first time?! Or is it because before she was born, me and her mother used to discuss the names and clothes and colors on the walls for her?

Sometimes you just love somebody unconditionally... and if it's conditional, it's not love..
How else could i describe my feeling for this little angel.. without even meeting her...

You know you're leading a good life...

You know you're leading a good life when..
....You get the most special gift from the person you love the most....at 00:00 am on your birthday... which makes your day even more special... especially when you have expected it the least.. and that too from a person who's the last creative person on earth.. it's so creative that it takes your breath away..and you realize what it is to have tears in eyes when you're the happiest..

...You get a pleasent surprise when your students from past college remember the day and visit you with cake and flowers and chocolates.. the things you love the most.. but those things coming from the students, makes that moment one of the most cherished one..

...You get to spend a quality time with your family on that day, with you being the centre of attention..(for once!!)..

... Your love of life again surprises you.. this time with beautiful roses..lots of 'em.. sent especially for you with a lovely message... and you just cannot go to sleep with that message in your hand..

...You just wish, this will make your year the happiest one..

Moment!

While watching the movie 'Hitch', this dialogue by Alex Hitches got my attention. It goes like this:
".. Life is not about the number of breathes you take… it’s about that moment which takes your breath away!”..

I wonder whether that moment repeats itself..! Sometimes.. i feel it happening!

On Time

Old habits die hard…true, but Bad habits surely have long life..!!

One such habit is arriving /coming late!! Yesterday i had this opportunity to attend a seminar, and to my surprise, the second speaker arrived first and the first one came after that! He apologized for that and went on give a splendid lecture!!

Why do people get late? Even though we put in order everything, yet manage to arrive late.
Unfortunately, i am one of those (many) people who just cannot manage to go anywhere on time. Of course, i’m not always late, and even if i am, it’s maximum 5 minutes. I know of few people who cannot come before half an hour past the scheduled time! It gets sometimes annoying for me also!!
But then, i happened to read it somewhere, that if we are late everywhere, right from the beginning, like to the school, college, meetings, date, then no matter how hard we try, we just cannot come on time!!
Is it so?? Okay, i’ll try to break this rule…i thought! I succeeded for sometime! And then i found out, that there is nobody to appreciate me coming on time!!